Larasati Silalahi

Hey you,
I hope this note finds you well.

I’m missing you. I have been missing you since the last time we talked on the phone. Listening to your voice was like a different kind of carnival to the soul. Yeah, it has always been you, the only person who balances me.

Remember when I told you about falling for that guy? You laughed so hard until I hardly could see your eyes. You said, “Congrats, you finally know how to love again,” but I sensed bitterness. Somehow your line sounded cynical. But you congratulated me, you’ve always been a great friend. Oh yeah, by the way, you were right. He didn’t deserve my feelings.

FYI, I am still in a good ‘healthy’ shape. I missed you checking up on me every saturday morning, during my gym session. I also kinda missed those times you paid attention to small things I always got fussy about. The vegetarian snack you gave me that night, that was sweet.

What about those stupid moments we had. The elevator incident, ring a bell? Only a guy like you could make me laugh like that.

I did a lot of thinking, you know. Especially during idle moment such as waiting for my 15 minutes time during sauna (no, I didn’t mean it in a kinky way ), I thought a lot about you. How you always managed to calm me down. How I always sensed the exact same thing every time I was with you. Pardon me, but I sensed that you have so much thoughts and feelings that were deeply buried under your calm and ‘keep-it-all-together’ facade. Only God knows what.

There is something I need to tell you.
Something you might not like.

I think I fell in love (again), with all the wrong reasons and excuses. Okay, now is the time for you to laugh.

Laugh, laugh all you want.

But hey, you have always been there for me, right?
You will always be there to catch me when I fall.

Hey you,
I’m missing.. the friendship. Your sarcastic laughs. How easy that is for you to read my mind. How you treat me like a little princess who ’should know better’.

I know you will always be there to catch me when I fall.

Right now, I would take you in any forms. Poured, sprinkled, or whatever.