Larasati Silalahi

Boleh cerita ya? Boleh dong, ini kan note gw. Mau nggak dikasih ijin juga, akan tetep gw tulis. Hihihihi.

Mau sharing satu kalimat emas dari seorang teman. Kalimat itu mengubah cara gw siaran 180 derajat. It came from a person named Pandji Pragiwaksono.

Jadi waktu itu gw lagi siaran Drive n Jive bareng Ringga Ardianto, it was my first time siaran prime time bareng seseorang yang (juga) bukan penjaga gawang asli (dengan kata lain, kita berdua sama-sama masih belajar hehehe), dan saat itu gw tau banget kalo I was kind of not being myself. Ya eya lah, kayaknya semua manusia normal yang baru dua kali siaran prime time, pasti ngalamin hal kayak gini. Kecuali kalo lo cyborg, ada turunan Oprah, atau mungkin sejenius Pandji Pragiwaksono atau Iwet Ramadhan. Well, I’m sure they also had this in their early years of broadcasting.

Anyway, back to what I was going to say. Malem itu gw bisa ngerasain kalo badan gw panas dingin, selain karena emang lagi flu, ditambah lagi groginya. I didn’t like my show that night. I hated it. I think it was a mess, even Hard Rockers ngerasain itu, ada beberapa SMS yang cukup SILET yang sempet kebaca sama gw (tenang Mr. Producer, it’s not your fault, gw malah seneng banget bisa baca itu hahaha), cuma yaaaaaa.. namanya belajar profesional, mau dihina kaya apa juga siaran lo, you just gotta keep doing your thing! Kalo di dunia siaran, mood lo bisa kebaca banget dari suara, jadi nggak boleh drop ngebaca hinaan orang, tetep harus kedengeran cerah ceria. Believe me, you would never understand how difficult that is until you really are doing it!

Kebetulan setelah Drive n Jive hari itu adalah show-nya Pandji (Provocative Proactive), so the guy was there during the last couple of minutes I was on air, dan dia juga been listening to Drive n Jive selama perjalanan ke kantor. Saat itu gw beraniin tanya sama dia. “Ji, kasih masukkan dong buat siaran gw, I’m not happy about it,” dan dia cuma kasih satu kalimat yang gw inget sampe detik ini.

“You are too busy pleasing people padahal what you’re really need to do is busy being yourself.”

Slap on my face!

Semenjak malem itu, gw ngeliat ruang siaran jadi beda. Never the same. Mic tempat gw ngomong itu adalah temen gw. Temen yang pengen kenal gw luar dalem, APA ADANYA, bukan gw yang sok asik, sok lucu, sok pinter, sok manis, sok alim, whatever!

They want to know me for who I am. Bego-begonya gw. Kadang culun, kadang bisa pinter dikit. Kadang kalo lagi nakal, keluar gatelnya. Kalo lagi PMS, keluar siletnya. And that what makes relationships! Being the true you, no hidden agendas, just simply being who you are. It’s that simple, yet so hard to do at first.

Two weeks after that night, I came to Pandji and personally thanking him. Nggak kebayang kalo gw harus siaran tanpa ada orang-orang kritis di sekeliling gw, yang secara konstan ngasih masukkan dan dukungan (yaaaaah, kadang-kadang juga berupa hinaan ).

OK, my question to you is this.

What about you in your careers, workplaces, ministries, circle of friends, families, or any kind of relationships..

Are you busy pleasing people, or are you busy being yourself?